09 - September


i fucked an underage girl

she may or may not have looked like my sister

it felt terrible


i was writing a low budget sci-fi movie

which i was also was going to act in

i think i was going to be the main character

the movie was about space travel

the plot consisted of multiple journeys involving the main character

they were getting longer the closer you get to the ending

so i think it might have had something to do with time dilation

in terms of characters there were strong female supportive characters

the main character was male i think

i remember only a couple of scenes from the movie

one is just the interior of a spaceship and a supportive character

the other one is the main character being stranded in a desert

i think his ship crashed on earth and he had to get back on foot

this and the beginning were the only scenez that took place on earth


there were 3 dreams

i no longer remember them

but i do remember than one of them involved my godfather


basically the dream was about me getting hours of sleep

i’m not sure whether it makes any sense

but basically there was a machine where i could add hours of sleep

and it’d be as if i just slept them in a row

there were other plot lines but i forgot them

except the one where i play homm3

i played it on my laptop which had charging problems

also i was terrible at playing


i was on a vacation

i think it was turkey

but it didn’t remind me of any of my past vacations

something went horribly wrong there

though i don’t remember what


it was a town called lewsdwig

it was really small

much smaller than the the city i live in

the place i visited was near the river

the river flowed into the sea i think

i’m not sure what the point of my visit was

i think i might have died and it was my afterlife

or maybe my family and i just moved there

i remember a house with people but not much else

at the end of the dream i became self-aware that it’s a dream

i took my phone and started writing it down

i wrote more than i actually did now

because i forgot many things

but the first 2 lines were probably the same

after that there was another dream

it was just one scene and then it ended

it was about a guy who died many times battling a terminator

each time he died he was in a separate universe

thinking about the main dream

i think it might have involved time travel

also i remember there was a scene at night

and the apartment i was in was suspiciously similar to my current one


i think there was a dream where i reused the same password everywhere

i forgot it and didn’t know what to do

there were other dreams but i forgot them


there was a scene where i opened reddit and there was porn in search history


walking with my mom

it was winter and we were near our old house

we visited several malls that don’t exist irl


there were like 6 or 7 dreams

i only remember the first and the last one

in the first one i was on an island

i called it iceland but it looked nothing like it

it was really small and you could walk from one end to another

there were at least 2 major cities on it

i was in the northern one

i’m not sure what the point of my visit was

i was thinking of moving to the island

i didn’t think about whether i can legally

also the climate was depressive and i didn’t think if i can survive it

i don’t remember the last dream nearly as well

i think we were on a vacation somewhere

in the first half of the dream some fucked up shit was happening

i think it might’ve been extremely heavy rain

or maybe it was related to some giant staircase

i don’t remember

so we went back into our hotel room

it looked suspiciously similar to our old apartment

our white cat susie was there and she got scared of me

my mom gave her a comically large slice of salami

i asked for one too and she told me to look in the fridge

i looked but woke up before finding one

i think there was a dream where i was recording other dreams

i mean i opened up this chat and started typing

but i somehow knew that it was just a dream

i wanted to wake up but decided not to

somehow my other dreams weren’t lucid


i had to go to my old military commission to take the documents

meaning they lied when told me they’d do it themselves

i wonder if the same thing will happen irl


  1. star wars-like movie

it was in space but the plot was quite different

the actors were pretty funny

i knew one of the actors

i thought that he got into that movie only because of his connections

i’m not entirely sure what it means tho

maybe he was ugly

  1. googling stuff on my laptop

google added a new category called spam

it showed spam pages for your query that was often completely unrelated to it

i think i was trying to find rare porn with it

i was doing in my closet and had to watch out for anyone entering

  1. taking a shit

the bathroom didn’t look anything like mine

it had a light blue wallpaper and was a bit bigger than my current one

also it didn’t have a bathtub in it

it was completely dark

i was sitting thinking about my first dream

cockroaches were crawling on the wall

there were too many of them

i was kinda anxious about it

i tried crushing them with my finger but i couldn’t keep up

okay i remember a couple of more scenes

in one i was eating starwberry flavored curd

in the other i watched a video that said eating cum is beneficial for your health

or maybe it was an article idk


i don’t remember the dreams themselved but i remember that there were 3 of them

they all had a casual atmosphere without any crazy shit happening


i think it was summer

i was going to go on a vacation somewhere

i wanted my dad to give me a lift but ended up using a bus

the place i was going to was prolly soviet

so like a sanatorium or an old hotel

while i was going there my phone died because of the low battery

i had some problems so i had to call my family


it was summer again

my mom and i were going to the beach

it was located outside of the city

we had to cross several bridges too get there

i think there were no dressing rooms so i was thinking about how i’m gonna change clothes

the beach itself was empty and barely anyone knew about it

i also remember a scene where we visited someone’s house

the atmosphere of the dream was amazingly relaxing


i was in the middle of a lake

it was shallow where i was standing but deep everywhere else

the river itself was located near either moscow or novosibirsk

i could see famous buildings far away from me

the river was really wide compared to the real one

i took a picture of some building in order to show it to someone

the dream ended with a completely unrelated scene

i had a scroll with numbers engraved on it

the numbers weren’t visible so i was thinking what i could do

also i couldn’t decrypt it yet


  1. driving somewhere with my dad

i think i went to some kind of dormitory

one of my groupmates was there

  1. prison?

first there was a scene where someone was choked to death with a chain

then i was put into a small room and “blackpilled”

basically they injected me with something and i died

i think i was in someone else’s body

after i died i could still feel something